Finding Myself Back

It's been a long time since I've owned a blog and it feels wonderful to think that I am going to own one again and to start writing again. Reason why I decided to create a blog? Well, let's just say that I am currently at one of my lowest point in life.

The pressure at work when I always had a passing score card and but now I have to maintain a passing score card for the next three months only because I failed to pass last month's makes me nauseous and worried if I will still have a job by my birthday. Our relationship which is almost failing because we I fail to spend more time with my partner makes me dubious if it will withstand for the next days, months or another year.

Although my relationship with my family, especially with my father, is getting a lot better now but I don't think that those misfortunes mentioned above would be the consequence in making my relationship with the people surrounding me to be better.

Well anyway, as the poem "Invictus" goes:

"I am the master of my fate,

I am the captain of my soul."

Only I will determine what my fate will be for the next days or months. Tha's it for now. I hope that I'll have more tune to write stuff - thoughts that only I can say to myself, but couldn't find the courage to say or express it.

Hope you enjoy this beautiful song that I always listen to when I'm down. It's a break-up song actually, but it always gives me the strength to go on and motivates me to never give up. That every person who comes into your life will always leave a permanent space in your heart.

You Made Me Find Myself by Tina Arena